If you want to know what students are experiencing in the Self-Leadership Training what better than a testimonial of one of its students. Eduard joined us this July for the Cosmogony workshop in Cluj-Napoca and the Level I Self-Leadership Training that followed in Cisnădioara. In the weeks after, he wrote the piece we share below, and he has generously given us permission to publish it for our school community. We share it because it shows what becomes possible when depth is met with intention, community, and the willingness to keep walking afterward.

I want to say a few things before you read it.

An experience is not complete when the school, retreat or training ends. It is complete when it has been given shape: a narrative, a meaning, a place in one’s life. Eduard has weaved his experience through the symbolic language he encountered in the school, from the Tree of Life to the Axis Mundi to the pendulum that gives the piece its title.

With gratitude to Eduard for his trust and his words.

“A Pendulum in Eternity…”

When I set out on the Path toward myself, my journey was born of a genuine desire to evolve spiritually, understanding by this the search for answers to the questions: Who am I? What is my mission in this form of existence? How can I evolve toward the higher levels of my own being?

I have come to know that I am a spark of Divinity, brother to air and water, to thought and emotion, to sky and void, to sound and color. I am a son of Eternity, of Light, and of Information. I am Echo, Step, and Word within that which is Infinite…

The path of each of us toward perfection, refinement, and illumination is not an easy one. At the opportune moment, when we are truly prepared to know ourselves, we become aware of our inner self, of our own imperfections, of the Light dwelling in our Minds and in our Hearts, but also of the darkness that represses sincere emotion and the creative or transforming thought of the inner being.

And it is here that the one prepared to know, to understand, to integrate, and to walk further along the Path toward Perfection is the one who cultivates evolutionary, creative Thought and strengthens sincere Emotion. He becomes the Rainbow that shines in the darkness; the Nahash (the Kabbalistic serpent) submitted to transformation through taming and self-cultivation. He is Prometheus unbound; or the goddess Inanna, stripped in the Underworld of Ereshkigal of prejudices, illusions, and ephemeral aspirations; Ulysses transformed by revelatory experiences and by the trials to which Circe subjected him; or Persephone passing through the Fire of metamorphosis, governed by the will and the love of Hades.

As Călin Radu Hîrza wisely and soundly observed, each of us, throughout our earthly existence, is a pendulum whose evolutionary role is to swing, to oscillate, in order to find its equilibrium again upon the Axis. This explains why, in the different areas of our lives and in the experiences that compose them, each of us passes through events, situations, or sequences of episodes that unbalance us or swing us from one side of the Axis to the other. And that Axis is nothing other than the Axis Mundi, the symbolic link between what is Divine and what is temporal, material, and likewise ephemeral.

And whoever works with the Inner Self remains constantly immersed in his own Work, at the meeting point between the Divine and the earthly, between the Eternal and the mortal, between the imperishable and the transitory. He is the plumb line (the pendulum) that emanates from the Divine Will and works in the Kingdom of Malkuth with patience, discernment, and constancy, understanding opposites, integrating and harmonizing them in order to restore Universal Harmony, according to the principle that Keter (the Crown) is in Malkuth (the Kingdom), and Malkuth is in Keter. For a Crown without a Kingdom cannot reign, and a Kingdom without a Crown cannot be organized, governed, or led toward evolution.

I prefer to call these oscillations of the being experiences of recentering, or of rebalancing upon the Axis. Not from the standpoint of their immediate effect, which is usually undesirable, but rather from the standpoint of the purpose of this inner earthquake upon the Axis Mundi. And here the purpose is to discover, to analyze, to investigate: Who are we? How are we not, or how must we not be? How will we face such situations in the future? What do those who do not resonate, in thought and emotion, with our own being have to teach us? Why do we live through experiences of this nature, experiences with a decisive, or at least a transforming, role in the different areas of our lives?

Each of us has the freedom to choose his own Path toward Perfection, toward his spiritual evolution, and even toward the understanding of his mission in this ephemeral form of existence. From the Kabbalistic perspective, the one called to understand, to integrate, to respond, and to become illuminated through knowledge is free, in his conscience and in his will, to ascend along the Axis of the Tree of the Sefirot toward Ein Sof (Ain Sof), the eternal Divinity, Creator of all. Yet his road will not be easy. The Sefirot of the Tree of Life are sown with trials, questions, obstacles, and revelatory experiences, where the inner serpent, Nahash, is continually subjected to discipline in Ruach, there where the Soul educates raw instinct through question, direction, and discernment. It is in Ruach that we distinguish good from evil, the just from the unjust; the realm where Mercy (the sefirah Chesed) and Rigor (Gevurah) come into balance; where Splendor (the sefirah Hod) and Victory or Perseverance (Netzach) are harmonized; and likewise the place where the Soul (“the four-month fetus,” which is later born in the sefirah Binah) creates through Information and through what remains “stored” in Daat, in the sefirot, the arcana, and the lower levels of the Tree of Life. And here a question arises: Are we Information? The answer: Yes, we are information materialized through Light, and we are a Creation of the Soul.

For some time now, in this world full of contrasts, differences, lights, shadows, and darkness alike, I have sought answers to the questions that brought me here, to Earth, questions on which depended the various activities of daily life in Malkuth, the Kingdom associated with the material world, with earthly life, and finally with the personal purpose of this transitory existence.

Through a series of personal experiences, profound and decisive in their effects, in which I took part between the 7th and 12th of July 2026 alongside extraordinary people from whom I continue to learn, I found answers and clarity, and I put into practice what, until that moment, I had considered merely a theoretical, theosophical, abstract, or purely conceptual approach.

On the 7th and 8th of July 2026 I took part in the workshop prepared and presented by Mauricio Albanes-Molina in Cluj-Napoca, where Cosmogony and Cosmovision were the central themes, approached from a Kabbalistic and even a theological and mythological perspective. We learned to value Cosmogony because it involves the human being’s own role in the Universe: to participate in Tikkun, the restoration of the harmony of Creation. It is the process by which the human being integrates and accepts diversity as a fruit of Divine Creation and, through thought, emotion, and action, contributes to harmonizing opposites and balancing the forces born in Neshamah, the level or faculty through which the human being can contemplate reality from God’s perspective. Or, as I like to call it, the Womb from which the opposites, and each person’s Soul, were born.

We can equally say of Cosmogony that it contributes to the knowledge and understanding of the Universe and, indirectly, to the understanding of the inner microcosm of every one of us.

The question posed by Mauricio Albanes-Molina touched the essence of an answer I had long awaited: Who am I? The answer came to me thus: To discover who I am, I must first understand who I am not. Only then will I begin to discover the essence of my own identity. In my view, this is a profoundly wise approach to understanding one’s identity and one’s personal role through antithesis and comparison. Who I am is not the same as who I am not: as identity, as a set of values, emotions, thoughts, and, of course, personal choices. And all of these, gathered in the Soul at the level of Binah, the sefirah of Understanding, contribute to the recognition, analysis, and valuing of oneself.

The Path toward God and toward Perfection follows the route of the Tree of Life of the Kabbalah. This diagram of the Tree is a true map of one’s spiritual and personal evolution. Studies carried out by international organizations have shown that the economic and professional success of certain great companies and entrepreneurs has been due in part to the understanding and application of the teachings of the Kabbalah, transmitted by Jewish sages and by other scholars who deepened the Kabbalistic Art. Because, in essence, the Kabbalah is Wisdom; it is guide, map, and revealed meaning within existence.

I also came to understand, as Mauricio noted, that “Consciousness descends toward matter by means of Information. And the heart is not a simple hydraulic pump.” Thus it is not matter that creates information, nor the material world that generates the spiritual, but precisely the reverse. And this statement makes full sense, because everything that exists in this material world is energy. And because the Soul creates through Information; and if it can create, it can also transform. From this we understand the importance of transformative experiences, and the fact that the life–death cycle is continuous, that nothing is lost, and that everything undergoes metamorphosis through information guided from Neshamah. It is the cycle of the Ouroboros (“oura” = tail; “boros” = the one who devours), the serpent that bites its own tail, present in Egyptian and Greek mythology, symbol of Eternity, of continuity, of the unity of opposites, and of self-transformation.

Among the most beautiful and wise precepts I have made my own from Mauricio’s teachings are these: “Magic is our capacity to transform ourselves, NOT to pull rabbits out of a top hat,” and “By transforming yourself, you will move the entire Universe.” Because magic means transformation, not a deceptive trick. Because each person can become his own Magician, not through sleight of hand or illusion, but through an authentic change which, if he believes it and feels it, will prove, above all to himself, that the transformation of the Macrocosm begins in his own microcosm; that the Tree of the Sefirot, present outside the human being, also exists within; and that, finally, the metamorphosis of the entire Universe is born from the transformation of one’s own inner world.

Yet for the one who has been called to understand, apply, and harmonize these principles, it is fitting, and indeed necessary, to believe in transformation and to become that Transformation himself. And the best beginning in the cosmogony of one’s own being, that is, in the understanding of one’s own person as the essence of one’s spiritual and existential role, is self-criticism. This requires awareness, full attention, analysis, and objectivity along one’s path.

In the spiritual journey that continued with the experience at Cisnădioara (Sibiu), between the 9th and 12th of July 2026, I reached, up to this present moment, the summits of understanding my spiritual identity and my role in this form of existence, my mission and my manifestation in Malkuth. My questions received their answers; the Light embraced and conquered the darkness; and Information transformed uncertainty into understanding, certainty, and self-awareness, through inner peace, full attention, and union with my Higher Self.

For me, the experiences of this spiritual retreat at Cisnădioara remain living proof that the best and most valuable investment a person can make is the investment in oneself. You are that spark of Divinity dwelling in a body, a mind, and a Soul, and you possess the power, through the transformation of your own Universe, to contribute to the metamorphosis of the entire Macrocosm. It may seem hard to believe; yet by following the Kabbalistic Itinerary, this goal can be reached with patience, work, and perseverance.

For YOU are that drop of life of the Universe which will truly understand Cosmogony when it reaches the conclusion that good and evil are one and the same reality; that Light and Darkness are sisters; that water and air are our brothers; and, finally, that All is One and One is All. Only then will we understand how the Universe was born, and that all forms of existence are, in their essence and in their manifestation, halves of the same whole.

Then we will become aware that we are brothers with those who have loved us; with those who profess another religion or hold a different political persuasion, or who do not share our ideas about life, morality, or divine consciousness; and also with those who may have betrayed us or lied to us. And the moment we realize all of this, we will no longer feel negative emotions. We will accept diversity as a consequence of the singularity of each creative process begun by the Soul in Binah; we will integrate this truth into our existence and become aware that we are all sparks of Divinity, and that we are all ONE.

And here arises the wise question Mauricio addressed to me: “Is God good?” I answered: “Yes.” Mauricio asked again: “Is God evil?” “Of course He is,” Mauricio himself replied. Because there, He is ONE; and in Ein Sof there is no imperfection and there are no opposites, but Absolute Unity, at its highest expression.

Imagine, in a symbolic sense, that the bread Jesus broke in the scene of the Last Supper expresses two states of the Cosmovision. The first is the dough from which the bread is kneaded and baked, and it expresses unity and homogeneity: good and evil are one and the same. That dough is Ein Sof itself, where there are no differences, no opposites, no shades. The second state corresponds to the moment when Jesus breaks the bread. It is there that differences, antagonisms, and opposites appear; it is the instant when a whole, the bread, divides. Slices appear, halves, unequally broken pieces. It is the birth of diversity through the spiritual process of Creation.

Mauricio identifies this moment of the appearance of opposites with the second Sefirah of Neshamah, that is, with Chokhmah, Wisdom. For under the sign of the number two we identify the opposites: left and right, above and below. It is with the number two that diversity begins, in the inner microcosm as in the macrocosm.

There, at Cisnădioara, the experiences of the cacao ceremony and of the Kambo treatment were what contributed to my inner and outer transformation. If the evolution of my physical state and outer appearance involved greater vitality, optimism, mental clarity, and physical endurance, on the inner plane the processes were far more complex, and their evolution proved unexpectedly beneficial.

Consciously and deliberately, I journeyed toward Atziluth, that realm where only bliss, fulfillment, harmony, and balance exist. From there, for a few minutes, I contemplated that reality and said to myself in silence: “I would like to remain here, in the world beyond. To die…” In that realm there are no responsibilities, no stress, no work, and none of the many other shadows of Malkuth.

If I were to describe briefly the experience of the 9th of July 2026, I would share a few aspects that were deeply significant for me. I felt the soul rising out of the body: an incomparable and, at the same time, wondrous taking off. Then came a sensation of floating in a space where absolute silence reigned, an indescribable harmony, a state of beatitude in which only Unity existed. And there, there was no time. The seconds did not pass. It was Eternity wrapped in the White Light of the Absolute and of Universal Unity.

Then I felt, in the physical body, that the in-breath had stopped. In the material body the seconds went on passing. I had to decide whether or not I would allow the breath and the heart to stop completely; whether I would confirm that involuntary stopping of the breath through a deliberate act; whether I would choose to die voluntarily, or to return.

A hard decision, set against the ineffable experience of that instant. And then I said to myself: “I still have much to do on Earth.” Beautiful moments still to live; to love; to create; to understand and to integrate; to follow my passions; to build; to forgive; to meet people; to share thoughts, deeds, and experiences. And above all, now that I have discovered my mission, I must carry it through to the end.

It was like asking oneself, halfway through a game of chess or of poker, or halfway down the running track, whether it is right to give up or to keep playing, to keep running, to persevere. And here the answer was clear. I had entered the game not in order to quit, even though it would have been easy to remain in Eternity and, in a sense, to call death or to receive it, simply ceasing to exist in the physical body, but to complete what I had come for.

There is no sense and no justification in entering a game only to abandon it after the first, the second, or even the tenth attempt or formative experience. To do so would have meant denying the essence of my own being, the purpose of my existence, and the mission that is mine to fulfill.

Then, in what I understood to be the realm of Atziluth, or the boundless atmosphere illumined in the White of Divine Unity and Perfection, I felt a Sword of Light pierce my chest and pass out through my back. Moments later, that sword became a ray of light that merged with my whole being. There was no pain, no wound, no blood. There was nothing of what a sword’s cut could produce.

In that moment I asked my Higher Self for the answers to two questions: Who was I, and who am I? What is my mission? Shortly afterward, through the spoken word, I heard the answers clearly. I no longer felt the physical body. I perceived only the breath: inhale… exhale; inhale… exhale.

I returned gradually to my body, which remained largely in a state of paresthesia, after more than thirty minutes of projection into the plane of Atziluth. And the White Light that welled up from within me was information, meaning, and life.

I understood that everything must continue, even though giving up might seem easy. For the true beauty of existence lies in continuing to walk, however beautiful the Beyond may be, however hard life on Earth may prove, or however immense the peace experienced there, in that place which those who have passed through clinical death describe as Paradise, or Heaven.

To this episode is added what is known as the Kambo Experience, of which I can say that its beneficial effects are owed to the merit, the effort, and the dedication of Mauricio Albanes-Molina, who has long researched the administration of this remedy with both medical and spiritual dimensions.

Its benefits manifested on both the physical and the energetic plane. And this is not merely an experience with immunological effects, but a profound process of purification and healing. On the physical plane it involves a deep cleansing of the organism; on the spiritual plane, a release of all that is impure from the energetic, intellectual, and emotional point of view.

And in that inferno of release I will always remember a single embrace, the one that accompanied me in the minutes following the administration of the third dose of Kambo. It was Luiza’s embrace. She understood, integrated, and guided me through the Inferno toward the Light. Thank you, Luiza.

After all these spiritual experiences, joined with those that involved friendship, togetherness, relaxation, healthy food, walks in nature, the harmonization of energies, and a renewed impulse to keep evolving both personally and spiritually, if I had to sum up everything lived in Cluj and Cisnădioara, between the 7th and 12th of July 2026, in a single phrase, it would be this: “I am a Pendulum in Eternity.”

I wish to dedicate these final lines to expressing my deepest gratitude to Hîrza Radu-Călin, Mauricio Albanes-Molina, Farah, Anthony Tate, Luiza Matilda Mitu, and Sergiu Corbu Boldor, for the organization, the commitment, and the dedication with which they made this project possible; a project that has founded and, at the same time, developed a true school of self-discovery and personal growth; a space dedicated to the acceptance, the integration, and the harmonization of opposites on the Path toward the Restoration of Universal Harmony, meant for those who feel the call to be part of the transformation and who manifest the conscious intention to contribute constantly to what, in the Kabbalah, is called Tikkun.

For all that I was, for all that I am, for all that I think and feel, for all that I will become, and for all that I will integrate into my Work for the Restoration of Universal Harmony, I wish to convey to all of you Joy, Gratitude, Appreciation, Devotion, and a sincere Commitment. I embrace you with all my heart, and I love you all.

July 29, 2026 — Eduard Luca